There we go, back to judgments, they always require there to be right or wrong, good or bad. Can't you simply let yourself be?
Perhaps, escape or running, without clear sight can at times be advantageous.
That is the root of all choices and the greatest gift of living; it's a test, a task, to see what one is capable of.
Failure is, not attempting to go beyond what one believes is possible. How can we know or understand ourselves, if we don't push our limits. How can we feel alive! Isn't that the true purpose? This is something that is sadly lacking in many.
Limits are not rigid, they expand and contract, and with each new experience they can grow, if one has perspective. Yes, at many avenues, it can seem to be the end, but perhaps it's an opportunity to go in a different direction
Everyone has some bad, we have to try and find the good in the bad. We each have to find the good; it's always easier to focus on the bad. What was done can't be undone, it's now up to you to let it go and find yourself. We all have parts of us that we wish we didn't. All we can do is look at the ugly monsters, try and understand them, and accept that they are there... never an easy thing to do.
Only a fool wants to know what's going to happen in the next minute or the next hour. Surprise, the unknown, the going beyond, that is what life and living is all about! Happiness is what we all seek, fulfillment and justification. We can't escape the past, we can only deal with it and grow.